Hearts & Truth ... a poem

Hearts and Truth

December 27, 2007

Which one is true? 

Do I love ‘Him’

Or is it You

Why am I sad

What do I want so bad

Is it just loneliness

It’s certainly not despair

Do I want someone ‘always’

Or do I really care?

I really love the closeness

The sharing and the Sex,

And yet I keep my distance

Have my heart at a ‘safe’ place,

Is that just discernment

Wise and practical?

Or do I choose again what is not really me

Or am I opening to places that I’ve not let be?

I know I miss ‘him’

I know I want more

I know I crave depth

In knowing and in Sex

And yet I am jazzed

By what builds between magnets

That are powerfully attracted

And made to be distant.

Can I have both

Deep love and deep Sex

Is it possible or real?

Or will I need many to meet my great need?

I guess only time … and truth … will tell.